Lent

I've been trying to post this for weeks. Better late than never.

This Lenten season I've been a bit more aware.

Sometimes awareness is so weighty, heavy, constant...

We cannot know the fullness of the celebration without engaging the suffering.
Darn it.

On Ash Wednesday we went to church to gather with other Christians who wanted to pause and begin a journey together towards the celebration that Easter demands. While we were there we read beautiful writings...some from scripture. One of the ideas deeply struck me. In heaven will I weep for not having been sorry enough for my sins? Will I mourn because I cheapened the lavish grace and unmatched sacrifice of Christ by not fully acknowledging the sinner I am.

It was my sin that held Him there.

With a growing love for my Savior I am so excited that Easter is coming. What a day to celebrate! It is the day that marks our release! The bondage is no longer...

God the Just is satisfied to look on Him and pardon me.

In the last few weeks I've been on a very personal journey through Lent. It has revealed a few things to me. The hardest one to admit is my insecurity. I've always seen myself as confident. I am generally a solid conversationalist, I've had an easy time making friends, I am not afraid to voice my opinion, etc.

Yet, it's in my face as clear as day...I am insecure. The details about what shakes my confidence have never been so clear to me. I am not completely what I thought I was.

So, now I begin to seek for my identity in Christ anew. Jesus covered my insecurity on the Cross. May my false self, my ashamed self die with Him as I become more of what I was intended to be.

Thank you Jesus...